My kids are super happy Trick or treating is still on for our community.

Whether people will be handing out a lot of treats is what we will be finding out tonight.

I am happy to announce we went for a short drive and there are no downed trees and flooding in our area.

YAY!

So we are going to dress up and go out this evening. Wish us luck.

So yesterday I posted a lot on Facebook about being afraid and wanting prayers about Hurricane Sandy. A step-relative’s girlfriend posted this morning on how some FB posters during the storm were all about themselves and Narcissistic. I took that to be me as well as anyone else who put up updates about themselves and the storm in their area.

It made me kind of angry this morning. Yesterday I was really scared and so were a lot of other people. The weather channels were telling us that the storms worst part was coming and what we were getting was nothing compared to what was hitting us hard. I am so glad they were wrong for us. But not everyone was so fortunate. If she was still living here I am sure she too would have had cause for concern.

She said she could tell who was truly altruistic and narcissistic on how people posted.

We, in the past, have not seen eye to eye. Also she doesn’t have a lot of family and friend on FB so I kind of took it as a jab in my direction. She is a Atheist and is one of those really outspoken ones against people of faith. She lied about me to her boyfriend who is my husbands Step-brother. Said told him that I hated him for not being Christian. I never said anything or hinted that. In fact I never even witnessed to them. When we spoke it was only about camping or fun stuff. I thought we got along ok. I never said an ill word about him but wondered once if he had a drinking problem a few years ago because he didn’t show up for a family Christmas party with him being too drunk. She was crying in the kitchen wondering why and I mentioned it. I should have never said anything but since then she has hated me. She gave me dagger looks. Step-brother wrote me a long email asking why I hated him then told me he knew it was because he found out I was Christian and Christian people hate Atheists. HUH? I told him no and he continued to pummel me with insults. WHACK job!

Trust me I didn’t say much else to them since except she attacked an post of mine once about violence in Spokane WA. She went way off the handle.

Was she is really angry, jealous, and vengeful because I have a lot of friends and family who commented on my posts saying they cared? I was touched by it all. Plus not everyone I know is a Christian and said they care about me. I know it isn’t just an Atheistic thing but I do wonder why the hate? It kind of threw me off that she posted that early this morning. It might not have anything to do with me I know and I know I should be not concerned about her bad attitude but puzzles about people always get me going. I just have this desire to understand her.  Why I guess it’s because I feel pity for her and her narrow view of the world at large. I am still a person with fears and doubts even if I have Faith outside myself. I do think all the prayers helped us. We stayed dry and it was a miracle, to me,we didn’t lose power. I was so glad but now I am sad that their are some who cannot rejoice in the fact when the things in life that actually go well for others.

I guess I could say that to myself too.

My Question is this, is it Narcissistic to post your fears and wanting prayer? I didn’t think so but I wonder about if she isn’t narcissistic to say she can tell who a person is by they way they post? I mean how can you judge narcissism in another person and accuse them of being Narcissistic without being one yourself?

Hmmm

Maybe I am too judgmental or overly sensitive. I just don’t know.

I am holding the fort today and praying all goes well with this huge Frankenstein hurricane we will be getting. Right now it is raining cats and dogs but we get hit tomorrow with the full force of the storm or what is left of it after it hits New Jersey.

Praying for my New Jersey friends today. I am really worried about them.

We are in a state of emergency but so far we are told not to evacuate. I doubt we will since we are more inland. I have one crazy cousin who lives by the shore who decided to stay home even when told to leave. I am really worried about her. I do not mess with Nature.

We have provisions, flashlights, batteries, candles, and all since we went shopping quick yesterday. I also baked a bunch of bread and rolls to have to eat of we lose power. We dragged out our camp stove so I am sure hot food wil be good on empty belly. They are saying we will most likely will lose power. I might update on pulses if that happens. We have a battery back up for our phones.

 Here is what I am quoting to myself today…

‘Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’ Isaiah 41:10

I know God always has a will and plan or us even in calamity. I am praying that will be done for all my friends and family in this storms path.

Pray for us.

I am on task with painting over my house. I have one project finished and it was my powder room.

I wish now I got a way before photo on how bad my bathroom looked. It had an awful wallpaper that a scraped off for days. This before is after I primed it so it looks half decent.

Before and After.

I used the color called Tea and honey.

My next project is up stairs bathroom and I am going powder blue and yellow.

Just showing off my paintings.

Stay away if you don’t want to read this…

I just do not understand how Christians are voting for a person who they believe to be of a false religion, Mr. Romney. ALL My life I was told the bible tells us to shut the door on the false prophets and not listen to their words meaning anyone who is of a faith that was different than what the bible taught. But now they are trying to elect him because the other option is a Black christian whom they distrust because his biological dad was a Muslim.

WOW I know that similarity! My dad was always thought suspicious since he was raised by his father and mother who were of the Old Native American Indian religion. Dad accepted Christ in his teen years and was thrown out of his house. He taught the bible went to bible school became a minister but all his life white people talked behind his back like he might turn to the devil at any moment. If they knew his heart they would have known his deep faith in Jesus. Thankful God sees that and our faith is not in their popular opinions and judgement.

I cannot say I even have such a deep faith as my father had and I was raised christian and went to christian school. Yet time and time again they accuse Obama of being Muslim because his father was, this angers me. I thought what you are is what you profess. Obama never has rejected Christ publicly and even went against his own party to say publicly he was against certain things that he didn’t believe in like Gay marriage and abortion. BUT He understood the need for freedom for everyone’s belief system in America. Obama wants pregnancy prevention to be at the top of women’s health care to prevent abortion. To make it easier to support a child by relaxing the tax on the poor and make the rich pay their fair share. Obama also publicly said he is against Gay marriage but it was a state control issue and stayed out of it. I won’t even go into the fact that lies are told about him left and right about his motives.

If prosperity is the issue then we know that cheating the poor to feed the rich is also against Godly principle. Christ almighty said that rich were to shed their wealth to follow him but so many Christians are so into prosperity teaching I wonder about their faith in Christ. Jesus said he didn’t even have a place to lay his head and that his disciples were not to worry so much about money. Roll forward to this century and it is all American Christian church is all about, Money. I was taught the Bible said you cannot serve God and money!

Is it because I am not wholly white that I see a different perspective, honestly? I believe that Obama is a godly person. I heard him called socialist and communist. I guess it is because he wants justice for the poor? God told his people to give a portion of our wealth to the temple and the poor. He judged the nation harshly when they didn’t have justice for the orphans and widows. But we are worried about tax cuts for the wealthy? The same people who tricked millions by selling them out in the stock market?

I just do not get it. I tried to wrap my head around it but my spirit cries for the unfortunate. I see so much suffering at the hands of rich and powerful men. Why is this OK as a christian?? During the last 15 years so many jobs were shipped out of our country for huge profits, why we are jobless now. I remember when the big moves were happening in the banks to do their operations over seas in the early 2000′s. My ESMIL helped go over seas to train workers then came back to lose her job to them. I saw how many were laid off in 2005 and couldn’t find another job because they couldn’t pay their bills and keep their credit score up. YES they judge you here on your credit score of you are worth hiring. Thanks BUSH! So many are underemployed because of this.

I also saw a number of small business people cheated their workers and used profits to go on cruises and vacations but couldn’t afford to pay a decent wage. They blame taxes but I doubt that when you have 3 homes and cars.

The rich are getting all the cream and milk. Why is asking an overly wealthy person to pay the same rate of taxes an issue?? REALLY? The uber wealthy they want to tax have factories in China and India and pay their workers a small fraction of the costs. They will not suffer like a poor single mom here trying to make end meet. Why is fairness evil all of a sudden? Its so called Socialist to ask to be paid fair and taxed the same? That is BUNK!

I plan to not talk about this again but it was brewing in my head. I cannot vote for a man who is calling corporations people and telling poor people they are poor because they are lazy. He is clueless to the real working man.

Obama might not have all the answers but I believe him over anyone else. Maybe it is because he is brown like me. Oh no I am a racist now. LOL NOT my other reasons are that he is doing what he said he would do as much as he possibly could without being blocked my congress time and time again by Godless Republican men. R-Men who sleep with their mistress and claim they are pro-life while sending their woman to get an abortion. Who claim pregnancy from rape is Gods will? Who make villains out of women who do not want to have government tell them to get forced inspections if they get pregnant. Who say they want less abortion but no prevention of unwanted pregnancy? Who also cry the rich are being discriminated against?? Who want tax cuts for themselves???

Who is Godless now? A man who does a championing for the poor or a man that wants to champion the rich make the middle class pay all the taxs?

Yeah what would Jesus really do??? Vote for a man whose religion teaches racism? Vote for a man who decimated jobs in his own company for profit then lies he knows how to make jobs? Or a Man who professes Christ and has a high resolve to help the poor.

Yeah its easy or me. Why doesn’t anyone else in my Christian friends and family get this??

So a few years back I commented on a youtube video about diabetes and I keep getting messages that I am negative. I was Neegee1 back then, I have then changed my profile from all the harassment in my inbox. But since its linked to my hotmail I get these in my junk mail every other few months.

This video in question was how to reverse type 1 diabetes with green smoothies. UM Ok Yeah RIGHT! I was flabbergasted and tried to explain how medically this was impossible. Now I keep getting jerks telling me in my inbox how I am wrong. Like they are experts.

I don’t know why I even care but it annoys me to no end that people are such whacko sheep to not believe in science.

He swears he had juvenile diabetes I disagree since they have found that kids can get type 2 now. For type 1 there is no cure. I would make my kid drink these everyday if it cured him. Trust me he would too.

here is the video.

I do know that type 2 can be controlled. He most likely had type 2 and had a good control of his blood sugars. That I do not doubt.

My comment was this  “Please make the distinction that you had type 2 diabetes. Juvenile diabetes cannot be cured yet. Type 2 is different from Type 1. My son has type one and If I thought feeding him totally green smoothies was the answer I would do it but It is a scientific FACT that he cannot be cured yet. He makes NO insulin. Look it up and if it is a fact Please contact the Medical professionals in your area so we can have a cure.”

Green smoothies have a load of carbs in them that send my kids blood sugars skyrocketing.

He has since renamed the video from type one diabetes to just diabetes.

But I keep getting people telling me I am a person who is brainwashed by science and the medical profession.

Gee you watch one persons video and you think you are an expert on Type one diabetes?

I live with this diseases with my child every day. MY Aaron is very active! He eats a balanced diet. If he couldn’t eat carbohydrates he would get very sick. He needs insulin.

So annoyed….

I am still painting my bathroom. WOW is it labor intensive. I should be finish soon to take pictures.

Memow is angry with me since I keep him locked up in the basement computer room. He wants to help too much.

Nothing like waiting for paint to dry…Next coat time soon…got to go….

(smoking meat)

Just sharing a picture of my uncle Robert and aunt Patty. My cousins posted it on Facebook since they don’t have accounts. They were the ones who taught me so much about Native life. I miss them.

My sister got to see my aunt in Toronto because their granddaughter was getting a major surgery.

I was kind of jealous. I am lonely for them and wish it was next year already so I could see them again. It has been years since I have seen Aunt Patty. Uncle came down just before dad passed away.

We talk on the phone often. I lived with them for several months and that bond is still there like they are my second parents.

Uncle promised to take my husband hunting if he ever goes up around hunting season. But I think it might be more like fishing season when we go. I hope my husband would fall in love with Canada. I want to move back so terrible bad.

Is there anywhere in the world you miss?

Last mothers day my nephew Nate planted a mothers day flower seed at preschool and brought it home. The sprouting plant was planted in a cup with a card for his mommy. It didn’t have a flower yet so we transplanted it into a pot and set it outside. It was a mystery on what kind of flower it was going to be since it had no note. I was careful to make sure it had water all summer long and Nate would help me out. It grew very long and tall but no flower yet.

The flower finally bloomed last week. My sister was unable to take a plant across the boarder why I kept it.

But this week the flower grew even bigger and brighter.

Here is Memow trying to get in the shot LOL.

Later Memow took out the plant by knocking it over. Such a  jealous cat!

So  I clipped the flower and pressed it in an old phone book to send to my sister @fatmarriedmama.

Really a funny thing since we had the plant all summer and only now it blooms.

Happy Friday!

I notice some people make themselves too busy to visit or talk to their own family.

 Case in point my Ex-Step-sister-in-law. She is a person who is so sweet to your face but you know she talks about you behind your back. She gossips pretty badly when I am at their house at holidays. She doesn’t like her Mother-in-law my Ex-step-mother-in law. (I am shortening that to ESMIL!) So she never has time for her. ESMIL is bi-polar but E-sis-IL has no patience with her and keeps wondering why she just cannot just get over herself. What a Godly Christian attitude huh? Sisinlaw is so dedicated to her church and bible studies It just makes me shake my head to think she cannot make time or her own family that needs help.

 ESMIL came over the other day and I can’t say she isn’t a very strange lady but in her own way a lovely person with a large heart and emotions. I have no problems with her. I actually like her. We talked for hours and when she got home called me and thanked me for listening.  Seriously how hard is that? It is hard to explain the air of contempt E-SISINLAW has around ESMIL. Everyone sees it. It is so sad.

 I cannot say I dislike my Sisinlaw but she is a person who only finds time for you when it is the holidays or a kudos point. They invited us over for a meal after church once and then cancelled when we got there because her son had… get this…Soccer practice. I kind of was hurt because they made this big thing to tell all the church members they invited us over.  I felt kind of like I was tricked to go to their church. Well maybe she needs more church. She promised to have us over the following Saturday and was going to call me. Yeah that never happened.

 So I initiated a meeting by message with an offer to come over with a bible book Aaron grew out of I thought her youngest would like to read. I told her we could just drop by and have coffee that she didn’t need to cook anything. Yeah Well I never got even a response to my email. She ignored me since she had answered a previous email about Christmas.

 What is that they people don’t have time for you unless you attend their church??? I was dropped like a bad habit from every single church member from my last church. It hurts. Why am not good enough or them if I don’t see eye to eye with their doctrine? I never said so.

 I posted something once about the modern Christianity with Tebow in their services and how it was off putting to some Christians that sports was being worshiped instead of God. She jumped all over it like it was her point to tackle this issue. It was like she thought I posted it for her. I didn’t. I never thought about her. I was thinking how true it was for me. I want church not a sports star worship.(I had posted this months before going to their church BTW not after)

 I don’t like when people do that why I hardly have gone anywhere since the last 4 churches I went to had a Politicians and Popular christian music artists take over service.  Make a special meeting for that junk.  Anyway Her point was it was to draw in people to the church so they could give them the message. OH Like you invited me to lunch?? LOL They must think other people are super dumb.

 Another person is my Father-in-law who cannot even get together anymore because between work and church services he is in charge of he can never find time for his son and Grand kids. Yeah I am sure God is pleased when your “churchiness” is more important than the relationships God has placed you.

 This American brand of Christianity makes me want to jump ship. If it were not a deep conviction in my heart I would walk away from the whole mess called Christianity. Yeah I know they are forgiven not perfect and all that jazz. I am also not the most perfect person myself but honest sincerity and kindness goes a LONG WAY for a person of faith. I mean how can you read a bible and not have it jump in your face that if you have no love for even your own family how can you say you love God?

Now you know I do not attend church because I am perfect in every way. LOL Not even! But I wish some family could just be real. That is all.

I wouldn’t mind if they all saw the LIGHT and came around more. You know, act like family. Enlightenment must be so hard for some people I guess. I won’t stop trying to get with them since I turn my cheek but hope I won’t even be too busy for the Real church which is peoples hearts, family and strangers.