June 18, 2013
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When I first blogged
When I first came to Xanga was soon after my father had died in 2007. I was grieving hard but Xanga really gave me a place to cry and say my innermost thoughts to those who cared for me. I had much more family on xanga at first than new acquaintances. I had a life that was up to that point all about everyone else around me but me. I love that Xanga gave me a place to reflect on who I was as a person and not just stuck in a role as a mother, wife, and a caregiver. I wish everyone could have that epiphany for themselves. I could have friends outside my small life’s circle I lived in as a stay-at-home mommy. I blogged even when I got no replies and even when it seemed no one cared because honestly blogging was for me and me alone. I heard it was therapy for a lot of people but it grew to be more than that.
I meet wonderful people here I might not have in real life since I was a recluse. I loved that feeling when I got someone new who liked my blog. It was like a new window opened in the universe where I could peer in on that person’s life and I learn how they felt and thought. That helped me because it made me more aware socially on the feelings of others. Before that I would come off on the internet as rather mean. I spoke my mind and was never thinking about another persons feelings. I saw how my words had an effect on people. How a kind word went further than a cruel one. I did this in real life since I was shy but online life is a whole different world. I at first had a license to say anything without a personal consequence. I went through a few relationships here on xanga too that ended badly. It helped me gain true perspective on how to treat and care for others on line as well as in person. It taught me to be kind. A very valuable lesson.
The small community of friends that grew because of connections here on Xanga will be missed so much. The next chapters of my blog life is going to be written elsewhere. I have to leave due to my finances. I am not working right now and to ask for one more expense when I can get a blog for free elsewhere seems silly.
Thank for all the love and support Xanga friends!
Comments (9)
I look forward to following you whereever you may migrate to. Let us know. You have been courageous and iconoclastic. I like your glimpses of native american culture.
I am in WORDPRESS and BLOGSPOT.
I’m glad we became friends. Make sure to keep in touch by e-mail.
@Shining_Garnet - oh you are not coming over to word press? There is a lot of xangians there already.
@we_deny_everything - glad we will keep up at WP!
People are doing all sorts of last minute things. We’ll see said the blind men as they walked off the cliff……
Hmm, I wonder where angy went?
@PPhilip - she is on WordPress with granny and a few others.
come on over.
@Ikwa - Heh, heh, now I remember. I wasn’t use to the comment and moderation system yet and now I will do better there.
I wish I had more time to blog. I have fallen so far behind the past months. I think about things to write all the time, but just don’t have time to type it out. I suppose I am just in a season of life right now where blogging is hard to get into the schedule. I will miss my Xanga friends. I have really enjoyed getting to know you the past few years. Hopefully we can meet somewhere else in cyberland.
@risingsunacademy - well if I get back on MFP I would see you more often.